I can't do it, so leave me alone

I don't know what I am doing! January 7 is our 2nd work day & it will be the 1/3 point of this program. I have not progressed well. Something is stopping me from doing my project.

We are supposed to talk to people in our community to find volunteers, donors and supporters for our project. I have not been able to enroll anybody. They start off listening and interested. Then I see their eyes glaze over & I start getting distracted. I am creating a level of expression / listening that is causing this to happen. The thing that I keep revealing to the people - is my sadness over the roadside casualties. So of course my conversations are not enrolling. They are not able to get past the sadness.

I'm really having a hard time getting past this and accepting my own sadness. My character is really getting in the way. I don't think I am going to attend on Saturday. If I don't attend, they will not let me finish the program.

Self-Expression & Leadership Program

I'm excited! Tonight I start the SELP program & my project can start a new life. In the Advanced Course, they told us that, in SELP, we will need to work on a community project. Immediately I knew what I was going to work on.

I intend to continue my Descansos project & hopefully it will be accepted. As you can see, I started taking pictures of current sites & starting to define my goals & my intentions for the project.